Have you ever had someone make a snap judgement about you after only seeing a quick snapshot of your life? Yesterday I had someone walk in to my house and after 30 seconds make a snap judgement of me. The person said, “I thought you were going to clean your house this week.” That 30 second snap judgement made me feel worthless and defeated. They only saw the last 30 seconds of my life. They didn’t see the following crazy day I had just had.
I had woke up early that morning. I did one load of laundry, washed dishes, fried a pound of hamburger, and got my daughter off to school all before 8:00 a.m. One of my twins got sick that morning. I had been attending to him while still keeping the healthy twin entertained. I was tired because I had volunteered at my boys preschool for three hours the day before and volunteered at my church harvest part that same evening. When my sick son who had been very clingy fell asleep I ran into the bathroom and quick scrubbed the bathroom floor on my knees. While I was doing this my healthy son was talking to me and asking me questions the whole time. I later had to get the healthy boy to preschool. I then came home to my poor sick child who would not leave my side. He was glued to me. So I gave up on cleaning at that point. I later had to pick up my daughter from school forced to take the sick child with me in the car. As I was walking out the door he puked all over me in the entry way steps. I was running late and had to just go and clean it later. Then we went and picked up my other healthy son from preschool. I wasn’t looking so good at that point. Quite frankly I didn’t smell like sweet perfume, but what choice did I have. Smelly mommy had to go in and get her son from preschool. I got home attended to all three kids and made supper. This is where the person walked into the room and made their snap judgement of me. They knew nothing about how my day had just gone. These are the make or break moments of motherhood. That comment could break me right there or make me.
So did I break or did I make it? Keep reading to find out. I heard the still small voice of God speak gently into my heart. He said, I saw you today. I was there with you. I felt validated. I felt noticed by God even if this person didn’t notice I was smelling like puke and looking very frazzled. I was reminded that God sees everything we do in private and public. God sees every time we put our children before cleaning our house. God sees every time we clean up puke. God sees every time we have to die to our own vanity to put our kids first. God sees every time you are rushing in and out of the house. Man gets a quick snap shot of our life. God sees it all from beginning to end.
I started to hear this song from Francesca Battistelli:
I don’t need my name in lights. I’m famous in my fathers eyes. He knows my name. I’m famous in my Fathers eyes, Make no mistake. He knows my name. I’m not living for applause. I’m already so adored. It’s all His stage. He knows my name.
I am currently writing this at 4:25 a.m. after cleaning up puke by my sons bedside. This mama wants you to know God knows your name. He sees you. He validates you. He restores you. He gives you strength. He is doing life with you. Remember, man doesn’t know what God knows. No matter how your day goes; He knows your name.
